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Well...
Still have 3 papers to go....
For the A2 exam....
It's freaking hard !!!
3 more papers, gonna end my A- Levels....
Hope i will get
a results that
wont make me retaking the exams....
I just need CCC
to enter
Manipal Medical school...
Hope I can get average B or something...
But honestly...
I am quite scared now,,,
as I dont think i
did well for the past 3 papers....
I dont even work as hard as last time.,..
It was like....
I become lazy & no more determination,,,
I am so scared now...
I scared
this....
my laziness....
will affect my studies...
now and in future....
becoming a doctor...
They said...
It's very hard
to become a doctor....
Everyday MUST study....
But i scared...
I cant archive that high...
I lost my faith....
I lost my confidence....
I lost my determination...
I lost every good habits....
I get screwed up...
No body can help me...
ONLY me myself...
can bring me out of these...
I know....
I dont like the feeling
of being a loser...
But...
This kind of thinking no longer
works on me.,.,.
It didnt motivate me like last time....
I am lost....
Confused,....
which decision should i make...
which road should i take...
what should i do....
and what should i dont...
God....
Please show me the way somehow...
I am losing my faith...
I really wish to become
a doctor,
but my laziness.,..
it just ruined me...
How can I study everyday
like those my friends....
How can i believe again....
That I can endure all these?
How can I do it again...
win the race...
succeed in every challenges...
without losing a breath...
leaving no mercy for the word 'Give Up'...
How ....
God... please
please show me how....
I want to be a better person...
When could i just wake up
from all these nightmares?
Just show me how to do it....
Harry
22/5/12
- Mood:
crushed
it's YUI`s birthday ! K
Happy Birthday YUI!
well exam is coming so tension looooooooo
- Mood:
cheerful
Sometimes... things happen too fast
and you dont even have
sufficient time
to think twice
and make a decision for a choice....
Depend on faith....
Luck...
Miracle....
Do you guys believe
that
everybody deserve a second chance??
Well...
In my mind....
Secong chance should be given
for those who lost the
1st chance....
& after that...
they fight for the next chances...
Their effort should be appreciated...
So they deserved it....
But not all the time...
the second chance are given...
I believe that
I had miss the second chance...
given by someone...
someone that...
really who I live for....
But will she...
regret for giving me
the chances...
because...
I never appreciate it...
Maybe she dont even give a chance for me...
maybe I thought I had miss...
But actually not....
Well...
If you guys had miss the first chance...
Dont lose the 2nd...
Before it's too late...
=] Harry
- Mood: grateful
all these days...
doing nothing at home...
Getting bored & rust soon....
Wanna make a wonderful plan for my holiday that ;last for a month....'
Well...
This Friday
gonna visit Grandma with my family...
Malacca again!!!!
><
But Tee how and Ah Chau them are going to Malacca as well....
They will stay there and I gonna be their TOUR GUIDE....
as I know there quite well....
Every year will go there at least once!~
They are going to stay 1 night @ Kuala Lumpur...
So will just follow them la!~
Well Well Well....
Wen Dy went to KL this morning...
Tomorrow she's going for an interview @ IMU...
A medical school that she will enter next year....
Wish I could enter the same Uni as she does...
But Dad couldnt afford that.... sad.....
But right here...
Wish her best of luck !!
Wen Dy you can d!!!!
I'm sure you can win this 'war'
hahaahaha
God bless you always!~! =]
Harry
- Mood: cheerful
It's been a while...
Well just finished my AS exam
2 days ago...
Gonna Rock this world for this holiday!!!
Hang out with buddies...
Do some ridiculous things...
Update myself about YUI...
MAny many things to do....
& gonna plan it well too!~
Just a wink...
I had finished my 1st semester of the A-Level program...
Well...
Things related to relationship..
made me mind cracking all the time....
Sometimes...
It's so weird...
That I cant even figure out
which decision was right to me...
& without a second thought...
I made a flash decision ...
&... That will be another mistake I done....
What the hell is going on with me...
I thought that I could handle that...
But...
'seems... lots of thing to be learned....
Anyway...
I made a decision & there's no turning back...
One way path for me right now....
These days...
spent a lot...
Wanna save money for my DSLR kits... lenses....
Everything....
hahahahaa
Well... dad told me
that
I will go to USM after my A-level,...
He cant afford me to those better University...or medical schools...
How desperate I am....
I wanna step into IMU, Manipal or others....
I dont request much, just finish my degree locally will do....
But I really dont want to go to USM....
Haiz....
It's like...
I just wanna go there,....
But dad have no money for me to go to those
Medical schools that I wanted so badly...
I am not dare to voice out
my feelings....
I tried....
But...
haiz....
Hope God will let Dad change his mind...
Afterall...
I wish I could o to a better university....
Harry
- Mood:
blah
It's a rainy day....
Recently,
I admire a girl....
'just a ordinary girl....
But she's the best for me....
She loves Rainy Day... ^^
Well...
she said, we are just friends...
Best friends....
It's ok....
I must respect her decision after all....
But...
Nothing will change my mind
in admiring her....
just...
I need time to prove it.....
She asked me dun waste my time on her....
But I think tat's worth no matter wad....
God bless her....
Mum fell sick....
admin to hospital....
so worry about her... Hope everything will be just fine....
God Bless her...
Sis will get her results today....
well... I think she cnt sleep all night long....
Just all the best to her...
God bless her....
God, pls bless the three most important girl in my life....
I hope everything will be just fine....'
Harry
- Mood: calm
Sometime....
you lie.....
Sometime....
you tell the truth....
As a friend for you...
All I can do is
hear everything you said....
& I choose to trust you....
believe in every single word you said...
Although sometimes...
It seems not true at all....
But I choose to believe in you....
What a big mistake I ever done...
I thought that will change your mind
not to cheat again....
But, I think now.....
There is no turning back....
Once decision made....
That will be the path that lead me the way
to my future...
The path not taken in my decision,...
willl be just a part in my mind.....
full with curiousity....
But....
need to let go....
move on.....
So guys....
Dont lie to others.....
As those who get cheated....
Are those who believe in you.....
SR aka Harry san =]
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❤ Nothing to lose BUT everything to gain ❤
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Pass my Car!!!
Dad probably goin 2 buy me
a 2nd hand car...
So excited!!!
haha..
That day emo...
cried whole night...
listen to those
emo Songs....
But after that... Feelin
much better,...
Maybe that's the
most effective way & the only way
for me 2 express out...
my sadness...
SR
- Mood: indifferent
waaaa
2mrw car test!!!
hope everything will be
OK...
God bless me pls !!!
2nite will be an EMO night
4 me....
maybe u may find out reasons on my blogger...
Keep my finger cross....
SR!~
- Mood: blah
